You Were Still Holding My Hand

I’ve always struggled to work with others and especially lead other, I’ve been put in leadership roles so many times and every time I eventually I figured out I couldn’t trust my teammembers as they would always screw up causing the project to fail. This meant rather than lead a team I would usually end up doing everything. So I got assigned to lead another team as per usual but this time it was to much work for me to do it all and it forced me to trust again and I thank whatever presence is above because I think it gave me the most trustable group of people. If something needs to be done I could trust any of them to get it done. for a moment I had a team and I already miss it. sure it wasn’t perfect but it’s mine. for 2 of the shows we had team members missing and you could tell the difference, they are all essential and I wish at some point I can work with them again.

It’s also the last time I get to see my friends on stage, atleast as a group, it’s still weird that I don’t get too see them every day and I’m sure it’s only going to continue that. They graduate this year and that’s scary and fun but I know they are amazing and I know they will make the world a better place when they enter it, they’ve already made my world better. I wanna hang out with them more but I don’t know how to, our relationships are built on theatre but we no longer have that connection to exist within, I really hope I can figure out a way to continue this friendship but I guess only time will change.